Pastor's Birthday Celebration

Wow.. Just wow.. Service was great, haha something practical was preached today =D This will be an extremely great week for people who are going to church for their 1st time I'm sure.. Rhythms, not routines.. Wow, it was powerful beyond words..

Pastor said that making rhythms is the best way to feel energized after a long week.. Haha a.k.a making schedules.. Oh no, I don't have this habit of scheduling all my crap.. think I'd just bore u all to death if I type all the revelations I had today so I'll just say.. Schedule your lives if you haven't done so =D And make sure you do all the important things if you have a bad mood on that day HAHA! Those miscellaneous ones can be left out if you don't feel like doing them..

And then we somehow stumbled upon Ken at the Pasar Malam while waiting for Pastor's celebration to start.. Hmm, what the heck was he doing there? O.o Could be God's way of telling me and Rey to invite him back to HOGC again =D

Onto the celebration.. Wow, incredible performances by "F" zone I think.. Or was it "C"? Haha nonetheless, excellent =D and then at the end.. (Y) I don't think anybody can express what Pastors have done for them in 1 sentence.. There's too much to say.. I'm glad that he should know my name from BMT though.. Its amazing what he does for our church.. I am extremely glad to have him as our pastor!!

We're all special

Wow, cg's just awesome.. I never regretted going for it even once.. We had 2 guests today that really livened up the mood I think.. Haha, I still remember the verse that was brought up today: Ephesians 2:10.. We're all special, God made us for a specific purpose and we should always be ourselves. Why bother about what other people think of you? Sometimes, it is natural that we would want to change ourselves to fit in,but in reality, we lose ourselves in the process. Of course, we should also change our attitudes and not use God as an excuse when we do something wrong.. Cg just brought new revelations to me, just like on service on Sunday..

Pastor How's birthday's celebration on Sat =D I can't wait for it HAHA! Excited~ Not sure if I should go though.. Why must it be on a Saturday? O.o

Quotes/Phrases to remember

"It cannot be 100% God nor 100% Man only, it has to be 100% God and 100% Man" -Glenn

"One life for one life" -Pastor How

"We can feel be alone but yet not feel lonely" -Wei Le

Revelation from a few weeks back: To just watch my words.. I dont want to hurt anyone with my words ever again.

Can't remember any more for now.. I definitely should update this page when I do though.. Pastor How was amazing in his sermon again.. Wow, I really can't believe we have such a great pastor.. And his background is just amazing. Who knew that he went through so much in his life? And it all stemmed from his desire to want his heart to be filled.. Wow.. His birthday celebration will be held next saturday, I really want to give some money to the people in charge of his celebration but I have none.. Must find some money soon =D

Had mood swings lately.. Damnit.. Feeling damn negative at the moment.. *sigh* So many things I should have said.. Should have asked people to pray for me as well.. Why the hell can't I just be transparent and let people know how I'm feeling at the moment?

Optimism

Dont know why but otw to school today I just thought of the reasons for me optimism..

I guess it seems kinda weird? Epic depression last year was crap.. Lol ahh wellllllllllll. Its over, a long long long time ago, seen things in a different light now =D

Anyway, optimism is quite easy to me I guess. Its just seeing things from other perspectives (not emo if you're the emo kind that somehow came to this blog LOL).. Just be simple, and be thankful of everything.. Fred said that the human mind contains 70% negative thoughts, which is so bleeding true.. Haha even in reality, most of us focus on the negative aspects of people.. Example: My dad? Haha I always complained about him, forgetting all the crap he's done for the family.. Like working so hard and still finding time to play badminton with us every week.. Life's like that, we're too caught up with the negative part of people.. Everyone isn't perfect, yet we expect perfection from other people I guess..

Is this a random revelation I got this year? Haha I don't know.. Argubly the biggest revelation I've had so far if that's the case.. And I'm just there for 4 months? Thanks God! And you if you're going to try to remember all the good things about people.. TRY. Haha

PS. No idea why the hell I even decided to post this.. Yay for randomness~

Thoughts..

Thinking about too many things.. That dream is still one of those thoughts.. Wishing there was a sign about that dream.. Is it just a random dream or does it hold any special significance? I honestly don't know.. And I don't wanna think about it.. >.>

Went to school today, apparently I was supposed to study but me, Mandy and Sherlynn all goofed off.. Well technically we were preparing for CG tmr.. I'm going to lead worship tomorrow with Many.. Ok, its kinda weird I guess.. Bah.. What's the worst that can happen? Time to step it up and believe in myself!

Did a proper Quiet Time at 2am.. I guess its kinda hard to do it w/o completing follow up but Pastor Lia had said it briefly during the finale of BMT, He told me to have faith.. Why the heck do I not have faith in some things? I don't know, I'll just pray about it I guess.. My ministry is more or less settled, by settled I mean 1st choice: Writing. Why? Cos my grammer is good, and my English is ok so why not? Haha time will tell =D

Double CG, 12/8/2010

Title says it all, 2 CGs in 1 day.. Hell was it tiring.. Haha

1st CG: Glenn's. We were supposed to have it yesterday but changed to today somehow.. Haha with everyone except Sherlynn being early.. (I and Mandy probably would have been early as well if Glenn hadn't woke up late) Anyway.. Revisited my past AGAIN.. I seriously hate revisiting my past.. I have far too many things.. I am afraid of sharing, I will admit that.. I'm afraid of so many things.. =/ Eff, I dont want to revisit those memories again.. Glenn's right though.. God's there to take away all the hurtful words that people have said to me, maybe that's what I need to do, to entrust God with all those "darts" and let Him take them out for me

2nd CG: HOGC's. Haha had fun in this.. Evangelising.. I really was surprised.. Hmm, actually I dont have a dream while being in church.. Right now its just I wanna get Jingshan to church.. And if she becomes a Christian I would be even happier.. I'll see how things go from there.. Haha felt God's presence today.. He told me that Jingshan will come to church, but He didnt tell me when.. Hmm, nevermind I shall be patient and wait.. I know she's coming, I have absolute faith in her.. Wei Ling's right, the only way to thank God is to reach out to more people.. That way, more people will be saved and God wants to save those who are lost. By reaching out, we're helping Him with his task! (Y)

Prayers:
5 people from T04 to be planted in HOGC by December
Jingshan to come ta church
Mandy to become a Christian
Yijun, Andre and De Wei to go for service at least once
Me to overcome my sharing issue..
God to take out those "darts" in my heart

Class outing

Woot, class outing was totally awesome XD Shame that only half the class went.. And a few left early... What kind of a class outing doesnt include everyone? Gotta get jianhe and sijie there sometime.. Lol

Anyway, started off by eating lunch.. Well, what else can I say about lunch? Other than Parkway being freaking expensive for me.. (No income for these few weeks =/) And then being introduced to Koi.. Didnt try it though.. Lack of money + I didnt know what to order stopped me =.= Fail.. LOL Bright side: Tiong Bahru porridge XD

Then the rain came.. I think Glenn has an amazing power to call on the rain.. And I have the amazing ability to make it stop (after a while).. Lol we're good XD Off ta ECP next though.. Walking there was awesome.. Me, Sherlynn and Mandy got lost =.= Apparently the rest were too busy chatting with one another to realise that we were gone O.o Lol, least it was better than letting Sherlynn and Mandy get lost.. Haha..

Anyway, stupid rain, I hate it.. I love walking in it though HAHA, too bad it made walking to ECP hard.. VERY VERY hard.. Bah.. + Cycling and Rollerblading would be made much harder.. Lol.. And I hadnt learnt how to freaking cycle... (I did at the end though, Woot!)

Honestly though, I wasn't sure that I wanted to learn how to cycle today.. Apparently I wasnt the only one that couldn't cycle, made things much more comfortable.. Since last time @ ECP, I was the only one that couldn't cycle =.= But we couldnt roller blade due to the crappy weather.. Oh well, A blessing in disguise? Took me forever to learn though.. Haha thanks to Andre, Sherlynn, Winston and Glenn for helping me though.. + Thanks to Jingshan and Denise for the encouragement as well.. (Y)

Learnt cycling and then immediately almost slammed into a tree.. LOL best cycling experience ever.. Although I did crash into Andre 2x later........... Yea... I better learn how to control me bike better.. And it started so well.. Me cycling from 1 point to the other in a straight line.. Hell I didnt believe I travelled in a straight line.. Apparently nobody was there so no one can vouch for it.. Maybe nobody around then i can cycle better.. Yay for less pressure? + I did pray to God that I'd be able to cycle, and I did.. Wow, I really can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!!

I seriously love T04, it truly is the best class I've ever had.. Random people, supportive friends.. What more can I ask for? Haha and very stubborn people who managed to fly a kite w/o anybody's help.. (Y)

Sherlynn becomes the 2nd person to know about that dream.. Andre told her with my consent while I was around.. Hmm... I still dont know what to feel about it.. It just feels damn real..

Wow, too busy with life to update.. Haha.. Making this a short one though..To remember all the prayers I've made this week.

1) Jingshan to come to church
2) Mandy to become a Christian
3) PCS T04 to have at least 5 people in HOGC at the end of the year
4) A bunch of people to finish and submit ITABS (Complete)

And about the website? Haha, I think I did an ok job of it.. Hell if I get an A I'll be freaking glad XD Hopefully the secondary school curse of me scoring the best on my worst subject happens again here in Poly.. It kinda be weird.. Haha

Side note: Last BMT training this Sunday, + Holidays are here to stay! Until exams at least.. Haha good luck for your exams everybody.. Can't wait to join a ministry.. Even though I am absolutely clueless as to what ministry I'm interested in.. Ahh well, God'll pick for me =D

Week 16, finally over.

Haven't been here in a while.. Too caught up with school..Haha 2nd hell week's over for PCS, all that's left is a stupid website due on tuesday. Can I not do it? Haha epic pointlessness for website =.=

Ok, finished yesterday's truckload of assignments.. I bet Samantha Choo didnt realise that half the people in her echat was busy print out their essays while in e chat XD Including me of course.. LOL anyway.. I think we did crap for our analysis report.. Saddedism, I think B is the highest we can get.. Dammit, more points lost.. Ahh well, we did it rather last minute anyway.. I dont know if I wanna keep doing things last minute anymore.. Then there was the essay.. Haha that was ok.. I edited it at 4am.. And then edited it again at 1pm (I probably should have carried on with the analysis report instead) due to various problems.. Hopefully I can get an A for Comm Service and maybe B+ for Writ Com? Yea, then I'd have B+ for Writ Com overall and my Comm service would be an A =D

Still left with IT though.. Man I really dont see the point of doing a website =.= Esp one that needs so many crappy things and a 1 minute flash crap that tells people of me learning journey.. Go fail in a hole please itabs...

Went for Glenn's CG afterwards though.. Haha it was pretty interesting I'd have to say.. He didn't prepare but it seemed ok.. I wanted more songs though HAHA.. Can't wait for next week's one.. I think I'll have 2 CGs in a day.. Haha that will be so epic.. I hope I can digest them all =D

HOGC BMT 2010

What a powerful day it was today.. 4 sermons that lasted from 8 to 5.. Whoa.. Its amazing how I survived so long without falling asleep.. That after sleeping for...... 4 hours? Haha.. Its great seeing all the zone leaders preaching to us! Really shows me how much that they have grown as a Christian and how much God has touched them.. Haha pretty amazing what we learnt today.. I better apply it in my daily life.. Especially the planning part.. So I can have more time for church.. Hopefully without parental objections..

Started the day at 6am.. Haha I dont know how I got up on time but I did.. Thanks God!! Haha, horrifyingly it was raining when I woke up.. I don't like the rain.. Especially in the morning.. When my sinus acts up..... Met with Anderlin and Kareen before heading to Macs for breakfast.. Lol I burnt my tongue.. How epic.. Haha

4 sermons = Evangelism, Planning, basic BMT stuff and something else which I can't remember.. Haha that was a lot of stuff to remember.. Thankfully I took down notes.. Will read them through again either later or tomorrow.. Its a weird thing having 4 sermons in 1 day.. I can only imagine next week.. 5 sermons including pastor's message.. Hmm, nevermind we can all do it! I'm sure of it!! Haha

Went to play soccer after that though.. In the rain.. The rain wasn't heavy though, so it was ok.. Just wet.. Extremely wet the court was.. Hmmm... Ahh well, had tons of fun =D scored a few goals (although they were against pri school children i guess?)! Haha De Wei didnt go though.. He said he was at 12 then said he no mood at 5.. *shrugs* He'll go some other day.. Me too, since BMT + church = 9 to 5 at church.. Whoa, kinda reminds me of work! Haha but I'm happy to be at the House of God XD

2/8/10

2nd post since I saved a draft of the previous post lol.. Hell was I tired today.. Probably should have gotten 15 minutes more sleep? Haha slept a total of 9hours over the weekend.. That's probably the shortest amount of sleep that I've ever had since entering poly.. It was worth it though =D Went to school early for consultation, it was ok.. Since she had seen my essay already.. And I haven't really edited much of it.. Woot.. Happy day, until I realised i didnt bring my laptop charger.. Epic fail.. Haha survived on 44 minutes of laptop usage.. Feels damn little nowadays..

Anyway, started on project.. The psych project of doom right after consultation.. Hmm.. We finally got started on the project again.. It had stalled over the last few weeks.. Oh well.. We did finish it at the end of the day, thankfully.. 4-5 interviews + lots of filming with Mandy's camera. (if you're reading this, thanks!!)

Then sociology tutorial... Hell, that was hell.. Lol.. Handed back ALL 3 assignments that we did over the last 2-3 months.. It was ok i guess? 3 Bs.. Not that bad I guess.. My socio's looking at a B grade now.. Much better than writ comm though.. (at C+)

Andre's being secretive though.. He didnt want to tell people where he had went at the start of sociology.. Only I know I think.. Other than him of course.. Lol he didnt even tell Sherlynn or Mandy where he went.. Kinda weird.. + Jiaqian and Jianhe also.. Why so secretive?